Why the rush?

Everything in my life lately has been rushed lately. Rushing to be on time. Rushing to get your projects done. Rushing to finish cleaning your room. Rushing to get that first kiss Rushing to get married. Rushing to grow up. I don't want to grow up. I'm 19 going on 20. That doesn't mean I have to know what I want to do in life. It also means that I can make dumb mistakes and learn from them. Why can't the world just slow down a little longer? Why didn't I listen to those older kids when I was younger? Oh, thats right! Because I wanted to rush. My goal for the next couple of months is to stop. Stop...

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Freeing

All I have to say is thank you. Thank you SO much Maddie. You let me, be me and didn't call me a ho ;) Whatever happens in the future. We will work through it! I love you so much and appreciate your friendship A LOT. To the point of over coming my fears and being open. Lets go forth and grab every shooting start that has our wishes hanging from them (Could I be any more cheesyer?) (Give me a break...it's early in the morning)...

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Starting over

Sometimes I feel like crap. I feel like I'm going no where in live and I feel burned out!  When I get in these moods I have NO CLUE what to do with myself.  So this time I decided to write down a list of the things that make me happy,  no matter what!  First thing you gotta remember is... it's okay to feel bad. Your feelings are YOURS. No one can tell you that their wrong or ridiculous.  Take the day off. If you are like me and hate people when you don't feel happy, give yourself ONE day of just chilling and being alone. The longer I'm left alone, the happier I am! Next...

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temper tantrums

I have been so worked up lately. I just want to scream and run away. But I can't. It's moments like this where I wish I was someone else. I wish I didn't have expectations. I wish people wouldn't judge me for five minutes and go "Dianne, your so much better than that." or "Don't be petty." What if I want to be petty? What if my whole life I've tried to do the right thing (For the most part) and WANT to be dumb and stupid?? But no, I can't do that without everyone making me feel like the worst person on earth! I'm SO sick of it. I just want to have huge tantrum! I wanna...

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I did it.

Earlier this week I had thoughts of "How am I going to do this" or "It's never going to work" or "I can't" BUT I DID IT. My photography project has been stressing me out like no other BUT I DID IT. It took 6 hours in the lab and only getting one photo done. Then the next day I got 3 photos done in only 4 hours! It was the best feeling EVER. There might have been a couple of happy dances!!! Anyways, if your having a week feeling like you CAN'T do it. Turn that can't into CA...

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Moments.

So while I'm sitting here painting my nails...the morning before a big test. I should be studying but yet I just had a really interesting thought. I've never really questioned why I wanted to be a teacher. I love it. I love watching that look that someone gets in their eyes when they finally understand. Knowing that, that person has something to themselves that no one can ever take away from them. I love that feeling. My whole life I've always been the more "slow" one. The one that needs the extra time or the help. I'm always going to be that person. But I...

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