Death seems so final to me right now in life.
It scares me.
It scares the shit out of me.
The thought of losing someone close to me is scary.
Losing anyone I've ever known is scary too.
That moment when you find out something happened, something that you had no clue about.
It's like a sinking feeling. Like you world has toppled over.
Faking that smile when it feels wrong.
Time moves on but it doesn't at the same time.
It's the last moment you had with the person.
It fills your mind and stays there.
But the last moment gets mixed with all the memories
or feelings
or even just...
