Memories

I wrote this 2 years ago. It was my first year of college and it brought back so many memories.  and this is collegewhen you get to college, you see people from high school you never talked to. you become friends.first thing I learned at college. putting 8 girls together and having 8 guys across the hall…drama.you best friend WILL leave you. you can’t relay on them anymore. your not cool enough…live with it, get new ones.you learn to become scarred of your best friend. you didn’t think it would hurt this much to watch her get new friends.the distance will hurt, its...

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Holland.

This poem struck a cord within me that I never want to go away. It's so scary and amazing at the same. This brings tears to my eyes. I want to go to Holland. I'm writing this as a 20 year old woman and I want to go to Holland. I want that for my life. Who needs Italy? Holland has so many perks that Italy doesn't. I wrote this ^ a month ago after reading the poem Holland. I still to this day would love Holland. Starting my twenties have taught me lots, one of the being is that I love everything about disabilities. It is a true passion in my life that I never want to leave. I've realized one...

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Augest Favorites

Where did summer go? Time flys, we all know that but really, where did it go!?!?! Anyways, this month I going to tell you my favorites AND a couple dislikes! Because, why not!?!?! Favorites: - Songs I've been loving Jake Miller! He whole EP The Road Less Traveled just is great! I'm just in love. AND I've been loving mashups or mixes! Like this one Marina & The Diamonds VS Coldplay ...

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Current favorites

So...I've been loving some new things lately...like in the past week. Banana Creamies I LOVE THEM Like, I'd marry them. Cold Kraft Mac & Cheese  No clue why I love this so much, but it's just SOO much better cold,  Give it a good 20 mintue sit AND then eat. LOVE IT. Tinder Pretty sure I'm only obsessed because being in a new city gives you new people on Tinder. (Yes, Maddie! I know it's sooooo 3 months ago, but it's still fun for some of us!) Also I may have found a fun texting buddy, but more on that later ;) Cruise "Remix" - Florida Georgia...

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Rant/Feelings.

Moving home has been different. I love being close to my dog. I love being closer to my mother and father. But at the same time, I don't want this life. It sucks. I want the life I had where I was happy and didn't have to rethink anything. These four walls that hold me in are a blessing and a curse.  Like today, I said something about how I had a pair of shorts but they were tight.  Someones respond was "maybe you should lose some weight"  My biggest fight sometimes is the fight against myself.  I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT GIRL. I don't want to care about my weight.  I...

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Everybody wants love.

It's simple really. It's something everyone wants. Something everyone needs. Love But in the real world, you can't just got out and say "I'm ready, where is someone to love, who will love me back?" Look around you, I'm sure you already have love in your life. Everyone has some love in their life. I have love for my family. Love for my friends. Love for my pets.  Love for my hobbies. Love for faults and my successes. I guess the point to this post is remind myself and others that there is lots of love in the world. It may not be the fairytale endding you thought about right before...

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Goodbyes never said.

Death seems so final to me right now in life. It scares me. It scares the shit out of me. The thought of losing someone close to me is scary. Losing anyone I've ever known is scary too. That moment when you find out something happened, something that you had no clue about. It's like a sinking feeling. Like you world has toppled over. Faking that smile when it feels wrong. Time moves on but it doesn't at the same time. It's the last moment you had with the person. It fills your mind and stays there. But the last moment gets mixed with all the memories or feelings  or even just...

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grateful

Working on my resume always makes me grateful. Grateful that I've has chances to learn. To have gotten chances to try new things. But most importantly it makes me remember all the people who have made me who I am today. My mother and father. Sister and brother. Friends and family. Teachers and leaders AND all the people in between. (I'm talking about the crappy people) It's good to take a moment and think about how lucky you truly are. How no matter how far you have fallen, you have always gotten up. I guess I'm also grateful for myself. I'm grateful for Dianne from 7 years....

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Facelift for the iPhone

Spring cleaning brings...changing up the iPhone? For me, yes! YES YES YES. When I read this on Our Reflection's blog, I KNEW I had to do it for myself. You can give your very own iphone a facelift! Are you sick of those boring old apps? With the same boring old colors that everyone else has? Try CocoPPa! Old! New! I think we both know which one is the cute one! Oh and make sure you DON'T delete your original apps, (I put them in another folder!)&nbs...

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February Favorites.

Okay, February sucked. My friend once told me about this "law" she believes in. It's that February sucks no matter who you are. Her reasons were that it's cold outside and you don't have the fun of holidays to wait for. Also, she went on a rant about how much v- day sucks for everyone (But I'll save you from hearing about that because I don't agree with her) I do agree that February isn't and most likely will never be my favorite month, but I thought I would share some good that came from it. Lets do this thang! Make up: Milani Ultrafine Liquid Eye Liner I'm...

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Why the rush?

Everything in my life lately has been rushed lately. Rushing to be on time. Rushing to get your projects done. Rushing to finish cleaning your room. Rushing to get that first kiss Rushing to get married. Rushing to grow up. I don't want to grow up. I'm 19 going on 20. That doesn't mean I have to know what I want to do in life. It also means that I can make dumb mistakes and learn from them. Why can't the world just slow down a little longer? Why didn't I listen to those older kids when I was younger? Oh, thats right! Because I wanted to rush. My goal for the next couple of months is to stop. Stop...

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Freeing

All I have to say is thank you. Thank you SO much Maddie. You let me, be me and didn't call me a ho ;) Whatever happens in the future. We will work through it! I love you so much and appreciate your friendship A LOT. To the point of over coming my fears and being open. Lets go forth and grab every shooting start that has our wishes hanging from them (Could I be any more cheesyer?) (Give me a break...it's early in the morning)...

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Starting over

Sometimes I feel like crap. I feel like I'm going no where in live and I feel burned out!  When I get in these moods I have NO CLUE what to do with myself.  So this time I decided to write down a list of the things that make me happy,  no matter what!  First thing you gotta remember is... it's okay to feel bad. Your feelings are YOURS. No one can tell you that their wrong or ridiculous.  Take the day off. If you are like me and hate people when you don't feel happy, give yourself ONE day of just chilling and being alone. The longer I'm left alone, the happier I am! Next...

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temper tantrums

I have been so worked up lately. I just want to scream and run away. But I can't. It's moments like this where I wish I was someone else. I wish I didn't have expectations. I wish people wouldn't judge me for five minutes and go "Dianne, your so much better than that." or "Don't be petty." What if I want to be petty? What if my whole life I've tried to do the right thing (For the most part) and WANT to be dumb and stupid?? But no, I can't do that without everyone making me feel like the worst person on earth! I'm SO sick of it. I just want to have huge tantrum! I wanna...

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I did it.

Earlier this week I had thoughts of "How am I going to do this" or "It's never going to work" or "I can't" BUT I DID IT. My photography project has been stressing me out like no other BUT I DID IT. It took 6 hours in the lab and only getting one photo done. Then the next day I got 3 photos done in only 4 hours! It was the best feeling EVER. There might have been a couple of happy dances!!! Anyways, if your having a week feeling like you CAN'T do it. Turn that can't into CA...

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Moments.

So while I'm sitting here painting my nails...the morning before a big test. I should be studying but yet I just had a really interesting thought. I've never really questioned why I wanted to be a teacher. I love it. I love watching that look that someone gets in their eyes when they finally understand. Knowing that, that person has something to themselves that no one can ever take away from them. I love that feeling. My whole life I've always been the more "slow" one. The one that needs the extra time or the help. I'm always going to be that person. But I...

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Shame?

 No one can make you feel inferior without you allowing them ...

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Goals.

I started some goals last week and I'm loving them. I've always tried to have goals in the past but they NEVER worked as well as these past couple of days. It really is just one step at a time! - My first goal was to stop biting my nails, okay so this one is still kind of hard for me! But I've found ways I can go A LOT longer from biting them. I paint them every other day and file them ALL THE TIME. - Brushing my teeth earlier in the night. When your in college you only want to do things once. So if you brush your teeth earlier in the night...well your not going to eat late night snacks... (I've...

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TO LIVE BY

This quote is perfect. Yes, it's best to have goals. But sometimes those goals don't come about. Goals change, plans change. Learning to live a life where you can let go and just live. Never looking back at life and saying "I wish I hadn't done that." Life isn't ever going to go as planned. Being able to use your plans and the plans that life has for you are the only thing you can do. Plus, whats the fun in always going by the book? It's not. You're always going to know what will happen next then. Which is totes boring....

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Dear 15 year old me

Hi Dianne from the past. I miss you.  I miss how quite we were. I miss how polite you were. I even miss how you swore like a saloir. Moving to Utah was good for you. I know you hate your parents right now, but they truly do love you. They want whats best. There are a ton of pros to moving to Utah. You get a laptop and a pool. AND you even get that puppy you always wanted. Never give up on the puppy. Dad gets sick, but it will be alright. He was in great hands and everything is better now. Mom gave up so much to move here. You need to remember that and be nice....

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Room cleaning

Why is it that I always clean my room just to mess it up again? AND that I get my best work done on Sunday nights?!?! I had allll day and I did NOTHING. But once the clock ticks 9, I get tons done! Ugh, well thats the life of Dianne Dun...

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